I had lunch with Ha today and was so desperate to tell her about Mel, and our arrangement, but I just can’t help but feel it’s too late. Plus it’s kind of embarrassing that I’m taking orders, and not even getting anything in return. But I feel like Mel has a plan and if I don’t follow it through then I’ll ruin it.

I’ve been invited to their place after work on Friday, though, just to hang out with her and Lily and get a takeaway and gossip. It has been a while since we all hung out together, and who knows: maybe I’ll do or say anything to try and seduce them by then?

I was so frustrated last night that when I got in I actually went to the website that Mel wanted me to post the photos on. The only good part was that to see images you had to create an account and log in (which I did), and it was quite a community when I got there. Not like I expected at all, actually, but a few like-minded women and, obviously, lots of men commenting on any pictures. Some people did seem to post photos of themselves either naked or near naked and seemed quite shy about it, but they always got nice responses. Mostly they weren’t even hiding their faces either.

It would be a big step, though, because if I was recognised (and I could be easily recognised from Mel’s photos) it could be a black mark against my career. I’m less worried about any future boyfriend seeing me, because I’d guess that anyone who was looking for those photos was already into that kind of thing, so it’s almost like a pre-screening!

Mel sent me a message to ask if I’d posted the photos yet, and I said no, because I couldn’t go through with it. She didn’t reply.

Pilates was hard work tonight, after missing three weeks because of all the holidays, and even my added energy didn’t really help. But at least it was a distraction.

Last night I dreamt I was tied up by Mel again. It was early morning in the office, and then she had to go and left me tied at the wrists, knees and ankles in the chair, just like I had been at her place. And then everyone started to arrive, and I couldn’t even move to hide, and then Tim came and started asking me questions about work and Ha said it was very brave of me to finally show my true self in the office.

Then I was called into a meeting but obviously I couldn’t walk there, so Matthew said he’d carry me, so he put his arms underneath my legs and lifted. His shirt was rubbing on my bare skin and then he moved his hand to get a better grip and ended up pressing you-know-where and I made a moaning sound and was about to have an orgasm… and then I woke up, still about to have an orgasm. And not able to do anything about it.

I was horny all day at work and starting to wonder if I could just randomly pick someone up to let my frustration out.

Mel is so mean to me!

Firstly, leaving the office was a bit tricky, because I went into the bathroom and undressed, put my coat back on, and then bumped into Tim on the way out who then started asking me about some piece of work that I’ve given him. So I had to go back to his desk and stand beside him explaining it again, all the while paranoid about being close to naked in the middle of the office! I can’t see how anyone would have guessed but it was quite nerve-wracking, but also quite a lot of fun.

It meant I was a bit late at Mel’s, and had to apologise even after she made me wait naked in the hallway. She just said I’d have to make it up, led me to her back room (after I’d taken my shoes off), and then she brought out some pieces of very long and very soft red cord. I can tell you it was soft because as I started to open the accounting software on her computer she bound it quickly and very tidily around my ankles, and then around my knees, keeping them tightly closed together, and lastly she made me hold my hands out and bound my wrists together (in front of me). I was pretty much ready to have an orgasm by then and I asked her how I was mean to work like that and she said that was for me to figure out.

It was actually possible to type, but far from ideal. Then she left me while I worked through her accounts. It was incredibly frustrating because I was more horny than I think I’d ever been, and having my legs bound together just made it even worse because it was it felt like a very firm message that nothing was going to happen down there tonight.

I worked for an hour and, to be honest, I’ve done a lot of the setup now so I’m not sure how many more sessions we need. Mel came back in and I walked her through it, which was difficult as I was still tied up. Plus all I could think about was whether she would finally give me some relief at the end of it all.

Mel said I looked quite elegant with my legs bound together and that made me feel nice. Then she went and got her phone, came back and took a photo of me at her desk! It’s not like I could get away either, because there was no way I was going to try to walk with my ankles tied together.

Then Mel made me slide off of the chair and sat me in the middle of the floor and took another couple of photos. I felt so helpless as I don’t think I could even stand without her help, and there she was taking advantage of me!

It all felt like it was building up to something, and then Mel started to untie me. It felt like nothing was going to happen and I wondered if she’d forgotten her insistent on my self-chastity, so I couldn’t help but remind her that it had been over two weeks and I said I’d been tempted to seduce just about anyone at New Year since I wasn’t allowed to touch myself.

Then Mel said she would send me an e-mail with the photos she’d taken attached, and a website address, and that if I posted the photos on there then I’d be allowed to masturbate.

Even though I’m home now and want to touch myself so much I couldn’t possibly go through with that. I feel stuck.

Alison and Russ across the road came back today. I saw them unloading their car, and within five minutes of getting inside Russ was in the nude! I guess I’m not the only one with pent-up frustration.

It’s a struggle to make it through today, to be honest. I hope Mel’s in the mood for something more fun tomorrow! While I sit and do her accounts… hmmm, that sounds even more odd written down than it did in my head.

I had another dream last night about being at work naked. I was planning to go to Mel’s so had undressed, and then had something to finish off and went back to my desk, and then Jo came and told me to take my coat off and get back to work because if I wanted to progress I needed to finish reviewing some accounts tonight and why was I leaving at only 2pm anyway? So more people came back to the office after lunch, and I was sitting there naked and trying to work, and then Rachel (who I haven’t fantasised about at all before!) was sitting beside me as I briefed her on some work and her tights were rubbing against my bare legs, and then she reached over and put her hand on my thigh.

And then I woke up, and I so nearly orgasmed, and then I remembered I had to go park running so got up quickly and just about made it in time.

Mel was there and she waited for me at the end and we walked back together and talked about how our new year and Christmas holidays had been, and I said it had been very frustrating! But I’m not allowed to ask if I can do you-know-what, so I just skirted around it. I told her I’d ended up in my underwear at the party and she found that funny, especially when I said Sarah believed I had nothing on underneath my dress. She said it was good to keep people guessing.

I’m still so frustrated, though!

I’m definitely just horny all the time now. I wrote a flirty post to Ellie today asking if she and Stephen had gotten anywhere on New Year’s Eve and she said they kissed, and then he dropped her off at home! She’s even wondering if he’s that interested, but I said maybe he thinks it’s serious and is making sure he doesn’t move too fast. She said she wished he would move a bit faster, and I reminded her that I was going to dare her to do something about it very soon if she wasn’t careful. I’m jealous anyway.

Back to work today! I kind of think I should really make some New Year resolutions, but then I never stick to them so why bother?

Today was just all about getting reorganised and remembering what we were doing before we all went away almost two weeks ago. It was also grim and grey and not a day for feeling very sexy about anything. Although I’m beginning to wonder if so long a period of abstinence is good for me. It’s over two weeks now!

Welcome to 2020! Which has started with a bit of a hangover (as many years seem to).

But, of course, you’re wondering what went on last night.

I went by Ha and Lily’s so we could all arrive at George and Sarah’s together. Ha and Lily looked amazing, as ever, in long dresses with splits up the side. I so wish I was as thin as they are!

On the way there we were talking about New Year and Ha asked if I had any resolutions, and I said I was hoping to lose my inhibitions, and she asked if I had any, and if that meant I’d just give up wearing clothes entirely. I said I would if I could, but maybe the journey to work would be a bit cold, and maybe the office would be a little less productive for everyone else. She said she thought sick days would go down.

But we got there and the party had already started and there were maybe eight or nine people there, plus George and Sarah. I didn’t know anyone else but Sarah introduced me to a few people and we got chatting.

Anyway, sometime later I realised I recognised someone, because he was at the Halloween party. It was  the guy that said I had by far the sexiest costume there (when Ha kept cutting pieces out of it and nearly pulled the whole thing off). I wasn’t sure of his name but it was Mark, and we ended up chatting again.

But I was feeling rather flirty. You may have noticed I’ve been feeling that way rather a lot lately. But I reminded him of what he said at Halloween about my costume. He said he was glad he hadn’t had to wait a whole year to see me again. He said the last thing he remembered was I nearly ended up with no costume at all, which would have been just fine. I blushed and said did that mean he was disappointed today and he just said “not a bit of it” and I went a bit gooey inside.

Sarah came over and Mark said he couldn’t stay for too long as he was supposed to be at another party for midnight. That left me feeling gutted and Sarah said their party was bound to be better, and he said “I guess the other party won’t have Kate there.” And then: “Unless you want to come to that one.” But I didn’t feel like going adventuring with a stranger, and it would have been rude to leave so I just smiled, and then said “I’d prefer to think of a way to get you to stay.”

Sarah could tell I wanted to jump him right there and then, and I guess because by now she was quite tipsy, she said: “If you’d seen what Kate wore the last time she was here I can guarantee you wouldn’t leave.” And he raised an eyebrow and I blushed, because the last time I was at their place I was naked at a dinner party.

Mark said “why’s that?” and Sarah beckoned him closer and whispered in his ear. I don’t know for sure if she actually told him, but he looked at me said “So do you end every party by losing your outfit?” and my cheeks really burned.

Sarah turned to me and said: “I’m certainly hoping you’ll have lost your inhibitions come midnight,” and then back to Mark she asked him: “Would that tempt you to stay? Because I heard a rumour that at midnight Kate’s planning to give up inhibitions for New Year.”

Mark looked at me quite intently and I asked Sarah where she heard that, and she said Ha had told her. Mark said that it was definitely tempting, so Sarah said “What about it, Kate? We can get a few hours more of Mark in return for a little black dress.”

I felt so embarrassed, but I said to her: “I’ll lose mine if you lose yours.” She was wearing a very grand and shiny green gown.

But she floored me by holding out a hand and saying “Deal!”.

I honestly had never thought it of Sarah, because although she seemed somewhat fascinated by my kink she’d never shown any sign of interest herself. And now I was tempted enough to see if she would go through with it that I had to shake her hand.

She turned to Mark and said: “It looks like you’re staying.”

I got more nervous as midnight approached, and at about quarter to Sarah came over and said: “If we’re going to do this, let’s go to another room.”

I still couldn’t believe she was planning to join me, so we went through the kitchen to the conservatory, where the coats were, and closed the door, and Sarah was already unzipping her dress and wriggling out of it.

And then I realised why she was fine with this, because underneath she was wearing a black slip with thin straps that could almost have passed for a dress. (Albeit a very short one.) And she had tights on, so she looked just as covered up as I did already.

I said “That’s cheating!” and she just smiled and said she was going through with her part of the deal, but to be honest I was feeling like I wanted to go through with it anyway so I unzipped my dress and wriggled out of it, and then Sarah accused me of cheating, because she said Ha had told her I never wore underwear! Did she really expect me to go out into a bunch of strangers in the nude? (Don’t answer that!)

But she said my underwear was really sexy, and the stockings definitely made it, so maybe this was even better. So now I had to help her give everyone a glass of champagne to toast the New Year.

So like that, in underwear and stockings, I carried a tray of drinks around, getting some very nice comments and attention from both the men and the women, and Ha saying she never believed I was wearing anything underneath and what a shame. I made sure to circle around to Mark last of all and he smiled and said he liked this outfit even better now.

We counted the New Year in, and touched glasses and I watched all of the couples hugging and kissing each other, and I gave Mark a kiss on the cheek and said I hoped his wishes came true for the New Year. He said he hadn’t even wished for anything until just before midnight and now it looked promising already and butterflies started in my stomach.

Except then he said he really did have to go to the other party, because his brother was there, and the butterflies in my stomach felt like they’d all been stamped on. But still, I got to hang around in sexy underwear for another hour or so before putting my coat over the top and sharing a car with Ha and Lily.

It was a nice evening, but it could have been better, and today I’m so frustrated. I’ll have to ask Sarah for Mark’s details, because this is not how I wanted the New Year to start!

Party at Sarah and George’s tonight! So I somehow spent half the afternoon getting ready. I’m hoping there are going to be some nice single men there, so I’ve gone for something a bit more figure-hugging than I usually would. It’s very much in the “little black dress” genre. And – shock, horror – I’m wearing underwear! And stockings, of course. Since I bought some nice sexy sets ages ago and hardly ever wear any, I feel like maybe tonight is the time to remind myself how it feels. Plus, if I “get lucky”, I don’t want some guy to be weirded out by finding out I’m not wearing any underwear.

It’s weird, I actually feel sexier than some of the times when I’m wearing almost nothing at all. I’m quite looking forward to tonight.