I persuaded Ha that Kieran was sorry and the holiday is on! And Ha is suddenly very enthusiastic about it and said she’ll find us a nice cottage somewhere quiet where I wouldn’t need to wear any clothes at all. It made me blush because I’m sure someone heard her (but at least we were out of the office).
I kissed and made up with Kieran. Of course I was naked while I was doing it too. I did let him stew a bit, and then made him ask for about the tenth time what he’d done wrong, and finally I told him that he had been hassling Ha about getting naked and it had scared her a bit and upset me. I think he realised it was wrong, but sometimes it’s hard to tell.
We didn’t really do much last night but it was nice to be on good terms again.
Oh, and we’re going to arrange the week away with the four of us for July! If Ha is still up for it, because she might still be too mad at Kieran anyway.
I’m seeing Kieran later and will try not to be mad with him.
I went to a meeting with Jo today and asked her how her date was. She said it was okay, but she wasn’t sure if she liked the guy enough. I said it was pretty good that she had her pick, and I wasn’t surprised because she’s such a catch – not even thinking about her age.
I was feeling brave so I asked her if she wanted to go out for a drink after work. I think I was flirting… She said she couldn’t tonight, but made sure I knew it was friends and not a date, but some other time. It made my heart flutter a bit. I’m very weird like that.
I was feeling horny after that so I went home and read some erotic stories and had a good old masturbation session. It’s been a while since I indulged myself and it was fun.
I bumped into Ellie at the PR company today, for the first time since the naked bike ride. I said hello to her and asked her if she enjoyed it, and then I saw someone’s head turn and realised her work colleagues might not know. She blushed and said it was more fun than she thought it would be. I told her how I hung around for a while later then my friend made me ride home in the nude as well. We had a good laugh about it and I think I’d like to see more of her. (Or maybe her see more of me? lol.)
For some reason today I felt suddenly jealous of Matthew and his happy (new) marriage and honeymoon. I wish my life seemed so simple. I know I should be happy that I’ve got Kieran, but I’m still not sure where that’s going. And also, surely if I’m with him I shouldn’t fancy anyone else? Sometimes it seems like I fancy everyone else. Like, Jo looked really nice in the office today. She was wearing a quite slinky dress (for the office) and said she had a date tonight. It made me jealous. Although on the plus side Pilates took it all out of me.
I feel a bit lost without going to the startup on a Tuesday. At least I remembered not to go this morning and went to the office instead. I deigned to send Kieran a message this evening to put him out of his misery, and to stop him annoying me. We’ll see each other at the weekend and hopefully I’ll stop being mad at him by then.