Exhibitionist Diary – Saturday 17th August 2019


That’s it. It’s over. Kate and Kieran are no more, and never will be, and I’m so angry I could punch someone. Well, not just anyone: I’d punch Kieran specifically.

It started nicely enough and I went to meet Kieran after work. He was still out with a couple of colleagues, and I could tell he felt pretty damn good about himself when I turned up in a short dress and heeled sandals. But then he just started to get all cocky with them and treating me like I was just some kind of bimbo, there to make him look good.

I hinted that maybe we could just leave and go somewhere by ourselves, because I actually wanted to have a more serious talk with him, and he said something like “You mean so I can get you out of that dress?” and I said “No, and you’ll be lucky if you see any of it the way you’re carrying on.”

One of the other guys said something about “saving it until later”, which I didn’t like much either, and Kieran said that I was never usually this shy, and then he pulled out his phone and showed them a photo from our holiday in Shropshire, where I was walking along the canal with Ha with nothing on!

All the guys were looking me up and down then, and I was so mad and told Kieran I was going to leave and it was up to him if he came with me, so I put my drink down and turned around and before I knew it he had his hands on the bottom of my skirt and had lifted it halfway up my body!

Half the bar saw everything from below the waist before I had a chance to grab my dress and tug it back down, and I turned around and kind of half slapped him and told him not to ever come near me again. I can’t believe how suddenly it all happened.

I felt so humiliated I just came home and I haven’t even told Ha or anyone yet. I’m upset about it all being over, although now I think about it it felt kind of over already, but I’m more upset about what he did and how stupid I was to let myself get into that situation in the first place.

Exhibitionist Diary – Friday 16th August 2019


I’m kind of excited about seeing Kieran tonight. It’s a lovely day so I’ve gone for a short summer dress, which, to be honest, is a bit too short for work. I saw Matthew looking at me (and he’s still newly married!) so I flirted with him a bit before lunch. It was such a buzz when you’re wearing nothing at all underneath.

Then we had a bit of a company meeting where Henry’s retirement was announced, but in a way that didn’t make anyone think it was a big issue. I realised a short summer dress wasn’t exactly the best thing to wear for that sort of thing! Oh well.

Ha said something about me having a big night planned. I guess she knows exactly what’s under this dress!

Exhibitionist Diary – Thursday 15th August 2019


I spent the morning in the PR company, but when I got back Jo said I’d have to brief Rachel on it and she can take over from me next week. Since Ellie isn’t there any more I don’t mind too much, although I do quite like getting out of the office every once in a while.

Kieran sent me some more messages today asking what I was going to wear to our date tomorrow. I said he’d have to wait. He suggested maybe I just didn’t bother, because nothing at all suited me very well. I said I’d have to see how the evening went, but maybe I’d have trouble getting in somewhere naked so perhaps I’d start with something. Although it would be fun to find out – maybe it’s a good way to jump the queue!

Exhibitionist Diary – Wednesday 14th August 2019


Interesting news at work today: Henry is retiring! So as of today I’m now working under Jo, both so that she can manage the transition more gently and I can get her up to speed on all of Henry’s clients. He won’t actually be gone for months, and he’ll be part time for another three months at least after that, and although I quite like Henry I’m looking forward to working under Jo much more.

Not many people know about it yet and they’re going to announce it at the end of the week.

Exhibitionist Diary – Tuesday 13th August 2019


Ellie replied saying dinner sounded great but maybe it should stay my turn again, which to be honest I don’t mind one bit. But I’m sure she’s curious.

Now I’m talking to Kieran again I’ve had a few messages from him, telling me that he’s missing me loads, and that he won’t be able to keep his hands off me once he sees me. Maybe I should make him wait more often if that’s how it works.

Exhibitionist Diary – Monday 12th August 2019


I had more messages from Kieran. I am kind of missing him, and I think I’ve let him stew long enough, so I said I’d see him after work on Friday. Might as well keep him waiting a few more days.

I sent a little tease message to Ellie on Facebook Messenger today, telling her that we were planning the next dinner and reminding her that it was “her turn”. She’d know what I meant! No reply yet.