I went out for a quick drink with some of the work girls because I thought it’d good to get out, but really I just wanted to get home and feel sexy in nothing but my own skin. I couldn’t resist messaging Ellie, but I only asked her how things were going and how the dating was working out. Although I wasn’t sure if I was actually flirting with her before it was fun to play around on the edge.
“She invited me for a morning coffee, but I wasn’t expecting it to be quite so… informal. Yet neither of us mentioned it, and I went home wondering what might have been.”
I seem to be managing Tim as well as Rachel now, which is sort of fun as he gets really shy the more flirty I get. And because of Mel’s rules I’m feeling very flirty right now! And I’ve got a lunch meeting with Jo next week to talk more about career stuff.
The thing with work at the moment is it’s one of the few places that I can’t just get naked and free, so I’m waiting until home time so I can dump my clothes in the hallway. This evening I went and pulled the curtains after I got in and Alison across the road waved to me, and it’s funny that now even my neighbours don’t seem to care too much about me being nude!
I sort of did it today, in that I told Ha that Mel was going to be doing some life-coaching for me and in return I’d be doing her tax returns. She just said that she knew Mel liked me the first time we’d met, but I don’t how because all I remember was that she was shocked and asked me lots of questions, and the second time we met she almost seemed a bit cold towards me. I’m not sure Mel is right, but then I guess she must like me in some way otherwise I can’t believe I’d be sitting naked in her apartment every week.
I had a meeting with Jo today and she said I needed to think about what I wanted to do with my future career. I was worried for a second, but she said there were lots of directions I could take but I’d need to start working towards something now. It seems like everyone’s giving me advice at the moment! I guess I should just try and listen.
And if I wasn’t sucker for enough punishment, I even made it to Pilates this evening. It was an intense abs session and I can feel it’s going to hurt tomorrow…
I really should say something to Ha about seeing Mel but I don’t know where to start, and more importantly I don’t know where to stop. How do I explain that I seem to have slipped into being some kind of sub relationship whilst at the same time doing the accounts? So I still haven’t said anything, but Ha did ask me if I was seeing anyone and I had to say I wasn’t, because I’m still not sure if I even am.
But then I’m still at home with a grin on my face thinking about it all, and if Mel hadn’t told me I wasn’t allowed to masturbate during the week I’d be doing exactly that right now.
“There’s only one way to see the Christmas markets, and that’s in a nice warm long coat.”