It was a drizzly park run this morning, but I got through it. Mel waited for me at the finish and asked me if I was doing anything tomorrow evening. Since I’m never doing anything and I wanted to keep Mel happy I said I was available to do whatever she wanted. She said to be at her place at six o’clock, and in a change to the normal rules of her apartment I was to wear what I’d worn at the New Year’s party. I said “You mean the little black dress?” and she said “Of course not! I mean what you eventually ended up in.” Which means I’m turning up in underwear and heels and stockings and I’m already looking forward to it. I wonder if she’s having another party? Sunday night seems to be an odd time for a party but I can’t think what else it might be.

I was feeling like going out shopping to buy more lingerie (as if anyone sees it!) but then I checked my drawers and found I had some from last year that I’ve still barely worn. And to think that I bought them trying to impress Kieran! What a wasted effort that was.

It did trigger another thought, though, so I finally messaged Sarah and asked her if she had contact details for Mark. I tried to make it sound casual but I’m sure she knew exactly what’s going on.

Everyone’s de-toxxing at this time of year so Friday nights are very quiet, so I just came home, got naked and wandered around the flat. And strangely, I realised it’s been a week since I masturbated at all, which is funny given how bursting I was before Mel let me, so I saw to that too. With the curtains closed, I might add, because I don’t want things to take a funny turn with Alison and Russ.

I had lunch with Ha today and couldn’t help but tell her about the naked bike ride photos that I’d found of us both. She was really embarrassed about it, but I guess it’s to be expected as there are so many mobile phones with cameras around. I didn’t tell her how I found the photos but then I realised I’d made a mistake when she asked where they were – because if I told her and she created an account and logged she’d find all the other pictures of me on there. Which would be a bit embarrassing plus, as I said, in case she is in touch with Kieran I don’t want to mess up any friendship they still have any more because it was obvious that the photos came from him.

Anyway, instead of telling her I had to go to the site on my phone, log in, and then waved the picture at her. Then I read out some of the comments (that didn’t mention my photos elsewhere!) and teased her that there might be good money in it if she wanted to be in more photos.

She actually seemed a bit worried about work finding out, but I don’t think the naked bike ride is a big deal. I’ve got a lot more to worry about with all of my photos on there – and I’m responsible for some of them!

Wednesdays are very much my “dress like a normal person” day now that I’m back at Pilates, so nothing fun to report here. But when I got home I did check my photos again and activity seems to have died down a little. I’m actually starting to miss the buzz of it. I guess I could upload some more! (Guess what: I’m not going to do that.)

I had my catch-up lunch with Jo (in the role of mentor!) today. I didn’t really have much to say from the last talk, but said I was reading a lot more about corporate tax law and would keep an eye out for opportunities. Jo said again that she wasn’t convinced about this direction within the company, but she’d help me with whatever I did.

Then we got onto gossiping as I asked her about her relationship. It still seemed to be going okay (but slowly) and they saw each other a couple of times a week, and sometimes he even stayed over! But she said she liked her independence, especially now she was in her forties, and couldn’t really imagine having to live with someone else just yet.

I always end these sessions somewhat besotted with Jo: she’s so smart, so confident, and still so damn sexy, regardless of her age! And I’m also jealous that her life is so well sorted while I don’t even have a good prospect on the horizon.