I’ve made a decision and I’m going to stick to it: I’m not going to wear anything at all tonight. I’m going to put on my shoes and my long coat and I’m going to turn up at Ha’s and make her eyes pop out of her head. We all know I’ll end up naked anyway, just like last time, so I may as well take charge of it. I’m making Kieran meet me at the tube and we’ll turn up together.

I’ve got butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it, though. And even worse I’m wondering about whether she might actually have a dungeon hidden away somewhere in their apartment…

I managed to drag Jo out for a drink after work. She’s not really having any success with the dating apps and says all the guys who are looking for someone her age are just too old, and anyone her age is looking for someone much younger. I said I’m sure there’s someone out there, but it made me realise just how stupid men are a lot of the time because Jo is a real catch. Someone’s going to be so lucky when they get her and I can’t believe anyone ever broke up with her.

We didn’t stay long so I went home when she left. I wasn’t feeling up to much after that so just chilled for the night. Tomorrow I’m going to Ha’s for dinner anyway, so that’ll be a lot of fun.

I watched Geoff and Ellie a bit more today. There might be something there, and the more I see of Ellie the more I realise she’s one hot chick with just a thin veil of normal over the top. Geoff is okay, but nothing special.

I managed to speak to Ellie a bit for the first time too. It was on my way out, but I do find myself quite intrigued by her.

When I got back to the office this afternoon Ha invited me and Kieran over to dinner on Saturday. I’m sort of worried now, given the conversation about bondage equipment yesterday, but you know I’m going to go. I can’t give up another chance to be naked with the three of them, because I’m pretty sure that’s the main reason Ha is asking me.

I was looking at Amazon at lunchtime and Ha looked over my shoulder and I realised it was showing my “recent purchases” on the bottom of the page! She said something about how she needed to get some more of that tape, and did I know people made whole outfits out of it.

I really didn’t know, so I had a look when I got home. “Outfits” is too strong a word, but I’d never thought about just wrapping a couple of bits around my boobs and calling it a top. Now I’ve looked at the pictures it’s all I can think of, but I don’t think I’d ever be brave enough to wear something like that in public. It’s almost worse than being nude, because you can be nude without it being sexual but it’s hard to have non-sexual bondage!

Ha asked me what I thought of the tape and I had to admit I hadn’t used it yet. She reckoned the handcuffs looked far too flimsy, and it did make me wonder what her and Lily got up to. She said she’d send me some links to some better stuff if I wanted. I said I wasn’t quite sure if I wanted that yet, and then she said maybe she’d just show me next time I was over there. It made me feel all tingly.

And you’ll be pleased to know I’m still keeping up the Pilates too.

It was really windy today so I wore long socks, which the guys at the start-up seem to like almost as much as Kieran does. Then on the way home someone opposite sort of looked at me, eyeing up the gap between my socks and my skirt, and then when I looked at him he blushed. He was so shy it was cute, and nobody else was looking, so I opened my legs a little bit. I don’t know if he could see anything, but he was bright red and trying hard not to stare. It was a lot of fun!

It’s my birthday in two weeks (on the 20^th) and Kieran has said I should book the Friday and Monday off and he’ll take me somewhere! We haven’t had a weekend away yet so I can’t wait.

I wanted to find some time to talk to Jo today to see how she was but she was out of the office for half the day. She seemed like she was getting over the break-up at last, but I’m still a bit worried about her.