I experienced another first today. Yet another first. The old me wouldn’t recognise the new me one bit.

Just in case Mel did meet me for lunch I wore a skirt and stockings, because I wanted to look my best. She didn’t confirm until the last minute and I had to make excuses to Ha as to where I was going and met her in a café nearby.

Anyway, we sat opposite each other in a booth, and now I was face-to-face with her I was too embarrassed to bring up the whole please-let-me-masturbate thing, and we both ate a salad and talked about the party on Saturday and I said how much fun it was. Mel said I had been a lot of help and she’d had enquiries from other people wanting to hire me! I said that sounded risky, because eventually someone will recognise me, but she said I should do it anyway and let the future take care of itself. I’ll leave that open for now but the idea really does excite me.

But we had finished eating and Mel sat back in her chair and I felt something against my calf and realised Mel had slipped her foot out of her shoe and it was her toe I could feel. I went upwards, past my knee, and then she slid it along my thigh, and she was wearing sheer tights and it felt so smooth and I took a deep breath as she put her foot beneath my legs, right under the table!

I couldn’t help myself as I pivoted my hips a little and her toe, um, made contact, and it felt so amazing that I closed my eyes for a second. Mel carried on talking and I had to concentrate on breathing and not making any other noise as her toe caressed and probed between my legs, rubbing slowly and firmly up and down. If anyone had stood over us they would have seen the movement beneath my skirt and I was worried that someone across the room might notice, but partly I didn’t care, but partly I had to concentrate so much on not making any noise that I couldn’t think of anything else.

I remember clenching my fists and trying to stay still and that’s when the orgasm hit, and as best I could, just breathing quickly and gritting my teeth, I don’t think you could tell, not from a distance. Obviously Mel could tell, and the harder I tried to control my body the more intense it seemed to become. I couldn’t even beg her to stop because I think I would have shouted it.

Maybe thirty seconds later, and only about two minutes after he start, I was done, desperately pulling my body away from Mel’s toe and feeling like I just wanted to slump over the table.

Mel let me recover for a moment and then, just when I was feeling as embarrassed as I could possibly be, she said, a little too loudly: “Is that the first time you’ve orgasmed in public?”

I went bright red, because I’m sure someone could hear us, and nodded. Mel smiled and said imagine how much better it would be if I was naked. I couldn’t believe I was getting turned on again already! And then she said “And imagine if people were watching.” I wasn’t sure they weren’t, but the whole idea was just making me so horny again I asked “Like who?” and Mel said “Like Ha? She likes you.” And I turned all kinds of shades of red. “Or your mentor. Jo.” I couldn’t imagine ever living that down but I didn’t want to say anything that would give me away.

After that she changed the subject, and ten minutes later I was on my way back to the office. I think that might have been the best lunch break ever!

Last night was just so weird.

The party started okay, with all the girls all being dressed up and the guys wearing suits, and clients came in and we were polite. And then I was totally freaked out first by seeing the cute guy from the party on Saturday, and then realising he was with his wife Deborah!

She gave me a funny look when we were introduced by Henry, and even asked if we’d met before! I was so worried that she’d recognise me, because that mask I was wearing really didn’t hide much of my face at all, and then when Henry said “This is Kate?” she said, with her incredibly soft and sexy voice: “Kate? You’re sure?” and I knew I’d been rumbled. I went so red and Henry obviously didn’t know why.

I couldn’t really talk to her after that so after being polite I found another corner of the room to hide in, but somehow she found me again. She said it was quite a nice party, but she’d been to better parties than this one lately. I didn’t know what to say, and then she asked me if I’d been to any good parties, because I must go to a few for my work! I said I’d only been to one so far, and then she asked me whether I’d worn the same dress. I said “no”, and then said she presumed I just wore something else and didn’t turn up in the nude!

The whole exchange just made me so horny, but I was so embarrassed I didn’t know what to say. So then she started asking me about work, and I started talking about what I wanted to do, which was all the clever tax stuff, and she said her company had a lot of that going on and she paid accountants to find her ways to save tax. It might sound dodgy, but it’s all legal, so why not? Then her husband came and retrieved her, and I could tell from his expression that at least he didn’t know who me from Saturday. Deborah said she hoped I found ways to get into the kind of things I liked doing, both in and out of accountancy, and I went red again and we exchanged a kiss on the cheek.

Jo talked to me afterwards and said something about me having a long chat with Deborah, and how they’d only taken her husband on as a client to try to get into her business but we’d never managed it.

When I got home I had to ask Mel if I could masturbate today. She said “no” again, but she did say she might be around tomorrow for lunch and a talk. Talking isn’t what I want! Abstinence is definitely not good for me.

On the other hand, I had a load of energy for pilates this evening, and since I was in my kit I ran home afterwards. It’s a few miles but I just have to let it all out somehow.

I ended up walking around the flat this evening with the lights on and the curtains wide open and almost hoping any of the pair from across the road would come over. Because I know the rules and masturbating may not be allowed but regular sex is definitely okay. Unfortunately, even though I know they could see me, I went to bed very frustrated.

I caved in today. Well, I nearly did, in that I texted Mel to ask her if I could masturbate because I just couldn’t concentrate at work. She said not yet and that abstinence will do me good. It doesn’t feel very good!

We’re having a client party tonight so I’ve got a dress to change into. It’s in a bar next door to the office where we’ve hired a room and I can’t imagine it’s going to be much fun.

It’s weird, but I was wondering what my feelings were towards Mel and whether I was getting into a relationship without realising, but now I’ve found out about Jason and it’s not really hurt me one bit I’m kind of relieved. It’s a lot simpler, I guess, because it doesn’t look like there’s any expectation. So I can continue to keep my eye out for a nice man (although the chances of one coming along seem tiny).

I can’t stop thinking about Saturday night, and I wish I was at Mel’s tonight, though. I want somebody to touch my body so much it almost hurts!