It’s weird, but I was wondering what my feelings were towards Mel and whether I was getting into a relationship without realising, but now I’ve found out about Jason and it’s not really hurt me one bit I’m kind of relieved. It’s a lot simpler, I guess, because it doesn’t look like there’s any expectation. So I can continue to keep my eye out for a nice man (although the chances of one coming along seem tiny).
I can’t stop thinking about Saturday night, and I wish I was at Mel’s tonight, though. I want somebody to touch my body so much it almost hurts!