It’s a gorgeous day today so I wore a little sundress to the startup and I felt almost naked sitting in my chair. I think it was a bit too short, to be honest, and I only had a short jacket to wear on the journey home so my legs were on display for the whole day. I think they went down well with the guys at least.

On the tube on the way home I had to stand and realised that it really lifts my dress up when I hold onto the handrail. I saw a couple of guys look at me and then look away a bit embarrassed, and I’m half ashamed and half proud to say it just encouraged me. I then got so horny imagining that I was totally nude in the middle of them all and had to masturbate when I got home and then spend the evening naked, and masturbate again. I’m going through a particularly high libido phase, it seems!

Ha dropped a bit of a bombshell of an idea today: apparently it’s the World Naked Bike Ride this weekend, and she said we should both go! I’ve seen photos of it before and there are just a lot of people nude (or just topless or in underwear) on bikes, and it looks pretty amazing. I hadn’t thought about it before, but now I’m an experience cyclist (after one bike ride) I can’t wait. I’m not sure if I’ll be brave enough to go naked, but we’ll see on the day. And I can’t believe Ha is up for it! I asked Kieran if he wanted to come and he said “no way! Unless I can just watch”. I don’t mind if he watches, but I don’t know how it’ll look to everyone else!

We had a nice night out on Friday. It was a bit like a first date, and back at Kieran’s we made love and it was nice and gentle and just what I needed.

Anyway, I was feeling sexy again by Saturday morning, and I could tell someone else was in the flat but I told Kieran I didn’t care because Ben had already seen me naked anyway. So I got out of bed and went to the kitchen without putting anything on. I’d forgotten about Ben’s girlfriend, though, and both of them were having breakfast, with Ben in a dressing gown and Helen in a nightdress. She has nice legs.

They both stared at me, which is good, and said good morning, but didn’t say anything about me being nude. I couldn’t have been happier because it was great to feel so free. I could live here all the time if it meant being naked.

So after that I didn’t get dressed when we finally did get up, and I sat and had breakfast naked with Kieran (who was dressed) whilst Ben and Helen went about their morning, and they came back fully dressed and ready to go out and we had a bit of a chat while I sat there with all three of them covered up and me nice and bare and tingly. I climbed on top of Kieran once they were gone and made sure he knew what to do, because there was no way I was leaving the house that horny.

Then in the evening we stayed in while Ben and Helen were out and cooked together, and I decided to undress for dinner and distracted Kieran no end while he was eating. We sat on the sofa watching a movie with Kieran stroking my skin as I wrapped myself around him and it was lovely.

It was a shame to come home on Sunday morning, but needs must. I’m glad we’re back to normal again at least.

I’m still at Kieran’s and writing this on my phone, and this weekend has been fun already. I’ll have to write all about it tomorrow. I’m much happier, though.

I’m meeting Kieran tonight and staying at his place this weekend. I wasn’t sure about it after last weekend, but hopefully that was just a blip. We’ll see.

I’m having lunch with Ha and Helen (from work. Not Kieran’s flat mate’s girlfriend.) I have meetings this afternoon so this might be the only chance to write that I get today.

It was a beautiful day out today so I put on a nice dress (and nothing else, of course) and just enjoyed the stares of men on the tube. Even Ellie at the PR place said it was nice. She was in a white blouse and trousers, but I’m still sure she doesn’t wear a bra. Geoff wasn’t in today, though, so I couldn’t watch to see if they were getting together at all.

Then I had lunch with Jo. We talked about work for a bit, but I had to ask her about dating. She said she’d seen a couple of men, and one of them was okay and she was going on a second date. I said that was great news, but also felt kind of jealous, which is weird. I still have some kind of crush on her. I thought I was too old for that. But I want the best for her anyway.

She asked me about my boyfriend and I felt kind of coy, like I didn’t want her to know about Kieran. I don’t know why.

I resolved to be in a better mood today, although I was still a bit grumpy with Ha. I did have a meeting with Jo and suggested we have lunch sometime, so that’s happening tomorrow after I’m done at the marketing company.

I took my frustration out on Pilates this evening, even if that’s not what it’s there for. But I feel better now.

I tried flirting with the marketing guy at the startup company today, with my blouse half unbuttoned and flapping around and a tight little skirt. I was still mad at Kieran as much as anything, but it didn’t really make me feel any better, and it turns out that when I’m in a bad mood I’m really terrible at flirting. I think I might have put him off entirely, so that’ll teach me. He wasn’t that nice anyway.

While I was there I got a text from Susan (the old work colleague) saying that it had been three months so did I fancy a quick drink after work. And boy did I want a drink by then.

Anyway, I told her more about Kieran, but how I wasn’t really sure, and she said she’d not met anyone she really liked recently and was wondering if it would ever happen. I know we’re only in our mid-twenties, but it seems like we’re going nowhere. I told her about Jo and her partner splitting after all this time, though, and we both wondered why we were even bothering if all men were going to do was replace us with a younger model once we hit forty.

I was a bit grumpy at work today, and when Ha said she heard we’d had an argument I snapped at her, because I didn’t want her to know every little detail of what goes on between me and Kieran. It wasn’t nice of me because it’s not her fault and I’ll have to say sorry to her once I’m in a better mood.

Kieran sent me a message after work but I didn’t reply to it. I decided I needed some “me” time so I walked around the house naked and who cares who looks in. It was quite liberating.

We had another argument. I think the problem was that last weekend was so good, and this weekend was just kind of… normal. It just all felt a bit wrong, like going through the motions. I feel really bad today.