No plans at all this evening! So I came home. But I’m getting a bit addicted to seeing how many people are looking at my photos online, and what they’re saying.

And then in a bit of a rush of enthusiasm I replied to one, and owned up to them… Not under my real name, of course. But I said they were me, but I wouldn’t say where I lived or where they were taken, and I thanked someone for saying nice things. It was kind of exhilarating, and now I’m thinking again about uploading those other photos. I mean, they’re really embarrassing, if they got out, but the ones already on there are too. I sort of feel like I’ve held out long enough and now I can show Mel I’m in charge by doing it at a time of my own choosing.

I’ll sleep on it.

I had a one-to-one with Jo today. She wants me to take on managing another couple of people on top of Tim and Rachel, which is good, and I realised that I’m way behind on trying to get my career on track. Mel had me writing things down but that’s all gone out of the window with this cabaret night thing. And there I was thinking we weren’t achieving anything!

I was feeling flirty again and I said it would be nice to go out for a more informal friendly chat sometime, so we’re doing that next week, whenever Jo finds a clear evening.

It’s been a busy working week and my limbs are tired from exercise. I found a new way to boost my energy a little in Pilates, though, which was to pretend that I was doing it naked. It certainly helped, but now I wish I really could! The teacher’s kind of cute, actually, like all those yoga/pilates type: barely an ounce of fat on her and as flexible as anything.

I can’t believe I’m talking like that about another woman.

Running this morning after dancing last night was not fun. My legs felt like they were made of lead. But I guess I did it.

Other than that I’ve just been busy working today, and was feeling particularly liberated when I got home so I stripped off as soon as I was through the door and spent the evening naked. I’m sure Russ and Alison saw.

I had lunch today, and I told her all about Mark and Ana and going back to their place. I didn’t tell her about being naked at the party. I think she sees me in a new light now!

Then this evening it was back to Mel’s , dressed up like some kind of tart from a Western, stripping off to a YouTube clip of “Be Thankful” and having Mel tell me not like that, like that, tuck my bum in, straighten my leg, don’t land my feet so heavily etc etc. This is turning out to be less and less sexy every week.

Then she quizzed me about where I was on Saturday morning. I want to have a secret from her so I said I was out late and it would have been a terrible run. She had to agree, but I’ve promised to make it up by going out early tomorrow morning. At least it’s light enough in the mornings now.