I made the park run this morning, so I didn’t need to text Mel, and I didn’t need to worry that she’d make me do it naked. Although I’m kind of intrigued by that idea now, I just can’t see that they’d let me do the actual event like that, which makes it a lot less fun. Then Mel said she was meeting Elise that evening, because she’d switched her night off and, did I want to come out. I said absolutely, so I have something to look forward to now.

I’ve spent the rest of the morning and afternoon on chores and now I have to decide what to wear! Mel said something with buttons, and I’m torn between a fairly short button-down dress or a skirt and blouse. We’re going for sushi first, and then wherever else we feel like. I’ve never really been out with Mel and I’m kind of nervous.

After work I went out for a quick drink with Rachael and Helen (on reception), but there were a few others in the pub already, including Tim. I still managed to avoid him, but we did make eye contact once and he smiled and gave a little nod. I wish I’d talked to him now.

When I got home I was feeling a bit listless so I messaged Mark and Ana, wondering what they were up to. They were out of town (but still in the country), which I said was a shame because I was feeling like doing something fun. I don’t know what I was hoping for in reply but Mark said they were back after the weekend so maybe we’ll meet up next week.

I did something silly today, which was to get all flirty with Matthew, because I haven’t for a while, but not really for any reason than to make Tim realise he wasn’t anything special. It was so immature, and I’m not sure he even noticed. But Matthew certainly did as I had quite a thin top on and as soon as I saw his reaction it made my nipples go hard, which were about as obvious as you can imagine, which meant he noticed even more, which meant I enjoyed it even more… it lasted about twenty minutes while I pretended to talk about work. It makes me wonder if now he’s a settled married man that perhaps he’s not really having sex any more!

I came home to a message from ENFBoyfriend on the photo forum site, because there were new pictures of me up from Sunday night already. There were some on Elise’s pub website, and even more on that site, and ENFBoyfriend said it was amazing to see me sitting nearly naked in the middle of all those people and he wished everyone wasn’t so stuck up that I could just go the full way. He said he hoped there’d be another performance, but now the link has been made back to Elise’s pub there’s no way I can do that again.

I think I’ll leave it a while before I reply.

Pilates day kind of feels like a weird day, because I wear a lot more clothes than any other day. But, for a change, I actually felt pretty energetic in it. I think the dance session with Mel put some fitness into me!

Another day of avoiding Tim, and now I realise the longer I leave it the bigger deal it’s going to be. But at least so far there’s no sign of him telling anyone else about it, although any time I notice him talking to someone else in the office I can’t help feeling paranoid. I’m sure I’d know if anyone else knew.

I had a catch-up with Jo today. She says the work for the Belarusian company needs to start soon and I’ll be taking charge of it, and it was up to me how much I used Tim and Rachel. So I guess I’ll be forced to talk to him soon enough.