The night out was a lot of fun! Ellie said she recognised Ha and Lily from the naked bike ride day, and I had to admit that I didn’t really know Ellie apart from through work, and pretended that we’d talked more than we had, because otherwise it might seem a bit weird… I guess it is a bit weird, because I don’t even know if we can be actual friends.

Although based on last night I’m pretty sure we will. And, of course, Ha got me into all kinds of trouble.

It was all because Ellie started digging and said it was funny seeing me sitting there nude for half of the evening when the bike ride had finished, and Ha said that I was almost always nude, because she was drunk, and I slapped her on the arm, but Ellie reminded me that I’d told her the same thing!

So Ha told her about the holiday, and I sort of wanted to stop her and sort of didn’t. And Ellie asked if it was just us three, and Ha said “And Kieran, who’s Kate’s boyfriend,” and without thinking I said “for the moment” and I got a long hard stare from both Ha and Lily.

Then Ha asked Ellie about the bike ride and she said that she’d done it totally naked too, just like Ha had. And Ellie said she was, and it was a lot of fun. Ha said she found it a bit weird to be naked outside, and it was only okay because lots of others were too (even if most of them were men), but she wouldn’t really like it otherwise. And Ellie said she wished it was okay to be nude whenever she wanted without people judging her!

Bingo!

Ha and Lily’s eyes popped out of their heads and I just smiled at Ellie, and Ellie blushed, and then I said that at my place it was okay for anyone to be nude any time they liked. Ha and Lily looked at each other, and looking back I think it sounded like a come-on, which it most definitely wasn’t. It made Ellie turn an even brighter shade of red, though.

Ha said “and our place too, because Kate is rarely dressed when she arrives,” and Ellie gave me another hard look, as if she was changing her opinion of me, and Ha, of course, never stops, so just said “We’ll invite you round for dinner sometime, unless you object to seeing Kate in the nude again.” Ellie said “not at all”, and then I blushed.

Oh my.

Girls night out tonight! I’ll have to write about it tomorrow.

Mornings at the PR company aren’t the same without having Ellie to spy on (and what was I even spying on anyway? I’m sure everything is just in my mind.)

I got a text from Kieran asking if it was going to be my place or his on Saturday. I haven’t replied.

How is it the end of July already? I had a busy day at work, and then Pilates, and Jo asked me how I was again and at least this time I could pretend and say “fine”, and she put her hand on my arm for a second which was really nice.

I tried to get a bit flirty with a guy on the train today. I had a blouse on and just fiddled with the neckline, but couldn’t really show him any more without showing everyone! I know it’s just my way of getting back at Kieran, even if he doesn’t know it (which is silly), but I have to get it out of me somehow.

I’m still so mad at Kieran. He hasn’t even texted me either. Ha knows that something’s up but I’m not going to tell her what it is because there’s enough tension between the two of them already.

Jo asked me if everything was okay and for some reason it had me close to tears and I hid in the bathroom for ten minutes.

What a day.

Good and bad things happened yesterday and today.

First: the good, and that was the night out. I wore one of the dresses from holiday, and nothing else except heeled sandals, and for half the night Kieran had his hand on my thigh, just under my dress, and sometimes even up near my waist, and it felt like I was close to showing a lot more than I bargained for. It was a lot of fun, and I wished the dress had buttons down the front as I’d have popped a few, but it was more of a throw-on thing so very much all or nothing.

But I told Kieran about how I’d loved going out for a nude walk with him in the evenings on holiday, and I wished there was somewhere we could do that here, and he said maybe we could take the quiet roads home. My heart was racing by that point and I suddenly wanted to leave the restaurant and head home!

So we went down a side road that I hadn’t been down before, and it was pretty quiet, but there were still cars around every few minutes and I was both nervous about doing anything but also knew I’d regret it if I didn’t. Then Kieran, when we were holding hands, stopped and turned him towards me and we kissed, and he had his hands on my buttocks, and then slipped them down beneath the dress, and then he kept on moving upwards, and I felt the cool air on my you-know-what, and then on my stomach, and then as we kissed his hands were up to my armpits, and he broke off the kiss and I lifted my arms in the air, and the dress just came off in his hands, and suddenly I was standing in the middle of the street with nothing on!

I wrapped myself around him and we kissed again, and a car went past but I think I was hidden by Kieran’s body, but then he said “we should get home”, and with my dress bundled up in his right fingers and gripping my hand with his left we started to walk.

It was so exciting! I got tooted at by a car horn! We walked for a couple of minutes, and then as we went around a corner another couple appeared, and at first the guy didn’t see me, but I knew when he did! So I just said “good evening”, and we walked past them giggling.

It wasn’t as much fun as being on holiday, but it was close!

So the next morning I was hanging around naked in Kieran’s place and Ben and Helen came in, and they seem so used to seeing my body now they don’t say anything, but they do look a bit (which I like), and then Kieran came in and Ben said something about won’t Kieran buy me any clothes, and Kieran said he was thinking of banning me from wearing clothes entirely! It was a bit hot, but I didn’t really like it, so I said he wasn’t the one who could decide, and he said he was, and why else have me around if I wasn’t going to be naked and do what I was told?

I was livid, and Ben and Helen knew it but Kieran didn’t seem to care, so I went to the bedroom and got dressed. The other two had (wisely) left and we ate breakfast in very frosty silence, and then I said I had things to do and came home.

It was such a let-down after the holiday and last night and now I’m quite depressed about the whole thing.

On the plus side, Ellie said she’d love to meet my friends! So now it’s four girls going out on the town on Thursday night.

I’m going to Kieran’s place today and we’re going out for dinner. I think we both want to recreate that holiday feeling!

We’re going out next Thursday, and without thinking I asked if I could bring someone along, because I’d been thinking about Ellie a bit for lots of reasons. I messaged Ellie this evening but no reply yet.

I can’t believe Ha! She called me over to look at her phone today and she had all kinds of me photos sitting around naked, walking along the canal (also naked), in the car (naked)… And she was showing me them right in the office! Anybody could have seen. I told her to delete them, and she said she might just post them onto Instagram or Facebook instead! I don’t think even she’d go that far, but then she said at least she had plenty to blackmail me with if I didn’t do what she said! It sounded kind of sexy, actually, and without thinking I said “like what kind of thing” and she laughed, because she knows me well, and said for a start we’d have to have a girls night out soon. (Which means “don’t invite Kieran” I think.) I said I’d agree to that if she deleted the photos. She said she wouldn’t, but she wouldn’t post them either… which I don’t think she was going to do anyway.

I went home still wishing I could find more places to be nude. Home is good and all, but it feels pretty tame now.

Jo asked how the holiday was today and what we got up to and I went bright red, because all I could think of was hanging around in the nude. She’d never have guessed that, though, but now I wonder what she thinks happened.

After missing Pilates last week, tonight’s was really hard. I’m going to hurt tomorrow.