Ha continued to tease me about the holiday, but I know we’re driving (or I think Lily is), and she keeps telling me I won’t need to pack much, which makes me excited and nervous at the same time. She’s also joked that we probably could do without taking Kieran, not just because of their falling out the other week but because she doesn’t want him in the way! So of course I’ve also been fantasising about being their sex toy for a week, even though they’re both committed to each other, I’m with Kieran, I’m straight, etc etc. The fantasy won’t go away, but I think I’d be too scared if Kieran wasn’t going.

I’m really into one-piece dresses now it’s summer, and if they’ve got a split up the side even better! I was sitting with my legs crossed and I noticed Matthew kept looking over, because I was showing pretty much my entire leg up the side. And it goes without saying that I had nothing on underneath.

You’d have thought he’d be a happily married man, but I guess there’s no time limit on wandering eyes!

Holiday on Saturday! So I’m trying to tidy up loose ends at work. That means handing over a lot to Rachel, and making sure Henry knows the big picture in case clients have questions. It should be fine, but it’s going to be busy.

The friends liked Kieran. I’d met one of their boyfriends before but not another, and the men sort of chatted together about all the boring things that they seem to chat about when they don’t know each other (football, motor racing, work). Jennifer, who I used to do music lessons with after school, said she really liked my dress and was envious about how I’d managed to stay so slim. So Pilates and running is working after all. I just had to resist the sudden urge to strip the dress off and show just how much I’d changed, although I did force myself to wear knickers since we were sitting around on the grass.

Kieran came back home afterwards and I waited for him to undress me, which didn’t take long. Although I was more in the mood for sleep when it came to it so I finished him off quickly and didn’t even bother with myself. I made sure he corrected that this morning, of course…

I’m meeting some old school friends for a picnic this afternoon and have invited Kieran along to meet them, which is kind of a big deal! And I’ll have to be on best behaviour, I guess… Although I’d like them to see that I’ve made some progress from the prudish girl they used to know. Once you get a reputation for that kind of thing it’s really hard to shake off.

On the plus side, it’s nearly midday and I still haven’t gotten dressed yet. There’s something really nice about just waking up and not having to bother with clothes.

I had a quick drink with some of the girls after work, and Jo came along and I managed to quiz her about what was going on. It seems like she’s semi-serious with a guy and I’m kind of jealous of him! I really admire Jo, and I hope when I’m her age I’m still rocking it like she is.

Then she asked about the holiday and for some reason it made me blush when she asked about spending a week with Ha. It turned out that she didn’t know about Lily and Kieran and thought it was just the two of us going away for a week! I’m not sure I could manage a week alone with Ha.