Ha continued to tease me about the holiday, but I know we’re driving (or I think Lily is), and she keeps telling me I won’t need to pack much, which makes me excited and nervous at the same time. She’s also joked that we probably could do without taking Kieran, not just because of their falling out the other week but because she doesn’t want him in the way! So of course I’ve also been fantasising about being their sex toy for a week, even though they’re both committed to each other, I’m with Kieran, I’m straight, etc etc. The fantasy won’t go away, but I think I’d be too scared if Kieran wasn’t going.