Lunch with Ana didn’t happen last week but it did spontaneously today, and I have to say I felt kind of weird to start with. I mean, we’ve been intimate in ways of not been with anyone, let alone another woman, but that’s always been with Mark around. I wasn’t sure how to act and I felt really tight.

But she seemed totally fine as if it was just the most normal thing in the world, and I just had to ask: how do I fit in with her and Mark? She smiled and asked me if it was my first polyamorous relationship, and I said I didn’t even know that’s what it was. She said it wasn’t officially, but that Mark liked me, and I liked Mark, and she liked me, and she hoped I liked her. I said I liked her quite a lot, and not just because of the fun we’ve had. I couldn’t help but wonder why Sarah still doesn’t but still: some people just don’t click.

But then I got a bit more explanation of it all, and a promise to talk some more. But she said we weren’t committed, so if I wanted to see people that would be fine too (although I’ve no idea who I’d see), but they would both like to have me over at their place again, and Mark said he had a great time at mine and Ana said maybe the two of us could have a girl’s night out sometime. I’ve got no idea whether I’m coming or going now but it was a hotter conversation than I’m used to over lunch and it made it hard to concentrate for the afternoon.

I mentioned the Belarusian company that had come into the office and she said she’d reminded them about me, and not to worry it was from the first (clothed) event and not the second (naked) one so my secret was safe. At least that’s one less thing to think about.