No rest for the wicked! Which means the park run happened today, although Mel wasn’t there. I messaged her to goad her about it and she said she was away visiting Jason’s relatives and wouldn’t be back until the New Year! Which means I won’t see her on Monday! That’s a disaster, because not only is she my only sexual outlet at the moment, but she’s even forbidden me from asking if I can do anything about my own frustration! It makes it even worse, and now I can’t even see an end to it it’s all I can think about!

I don’t know what I was thinking but I went out in the boots and coat again and ended up browsing the post-Christmas sales. But it was kind of hard to pick things up and see if they fitted without revealing that I had nothing on underneath so I came back empty-handed. I probably wasn’t in the right frame of mind to make good decisions anyway.