I can’t stop thinking about last night. I can’t believe it happened. Also, when I saw Ha today, I can’t believe how dirty I feel, not just because I spent last night masturbating naked on the floor in front of a near stranger, but because I still haven’t mentioned any of this to her. Not even the park runs.

I guess it’s not really her business, but then I feel like we nearly shared something on Friday night too. I wonder if she’d feel the same way about me if she knew. But then, she’s in a relationship, so why should it matter?

Why is everything so complicated.