I picked up my new underwear today. I’m glad my neighbour didn’t open it, but I was still blushing when I took it from her. I think she recognised the company name on the box, but I don’t know why I’m embarrassed about it. It isn’t necessarily sexy underwear, it just so happens that it is.

I tried it on and I feel amazing. Maybe I’ll switch to wearing no underwear to wearing only underwear. I hope Kieran appreciates it… if we ever get that far. I’m going to wear it tonight, and I think this might be the first time I’ve worn anything beneath my clothes when I’ve seen him! Which makes me feel like I’m very weird indeed… I’ve got a slightly see-through dress top to put over it, though, so he’ll get a sneak preview.

I decided to take “dress down Friday” as far as I could today. Not by dressing informally, of course… but it was suddenly warmer out so I only had a long skirt and a sweater, and ankle boots. Then at lunchtime I got a text from Kieran asking what I was doing at the weekend. I waited until the end of the day to reply and we’re meeting up tomorrow.

My new racy underwear was supposed to be delivered yesterday but it went to a neighbour instead. I hope they don’t open it by mistake!

I didn’t wear any today anyway, of course, but beneath the blouse and cardigan nobody would ever have known. Matthew came over to see me in the office and I was surprised to find myself flirting with him even more than before. It’s amazing what a bit of confidence can do!

Back to work already! Helen on reception said I looked happy about something. I just said I’d had a nice break.

Ha was full of gossip at lunchtime. I know she’d said that she and Kieran talked about everything, but I didn’t know guys really did that. But apparently he really likes me! I can’t believe it! I tried to play it cool but I think I was grinning too much. She said she saw us kiss at New Year and it was good to see me happy.

I still haven’t heard from Kieran, but I don’t think he would tell Ha he liked me if he didn’t. And since I know that I’m not going to message him first.

And of course there was the first Pilates class since Christmas. That was hard…

That was the best New Year ever. We kissed at New Year. I haven’t been kissed for quite a while. Kieran looks even taller from close up and I had to stand on tiptoes. He had his hands on my waist and he squeezed gently. I would have gone home with him if he’d asked, but he’s too nice for that.

I got a teasing text from Ha this morning saying that she was glad we’d hit it off and how she’d never even thought we’d be interested in each other. I called her a liar because she knew exactly what she was doing. But I did add a smiley 🙂

I never do anything for New Year, but Ha has said I have to go out with her friends, and she said Kieran will be there if I am. Which means I have to.

And now I don’t know what to wear. At least it’s not as cold as Friday. I’m thinking a dress anyway: go full-on feminine, and don’t worry too much if it’s not showing much. Hopefully Kieran’s imagination will fill in the gaps (and probably improve on reality anyway). We’re only going to a bar so it’s nothing big.

I dared myself today. I put on some underwear, and my coat, and I went for a walk. It was lovely. I sort of wish I hadn’t worn the underwear really, because it wasn’t particularly sexy, but I was too scared not to. It was only a ten minute walk but I felt like everyone who saw me knew that I was almost nude beneath my coat. I know they can’t have done, but it felt like it, and it was wonderful.

I was home too late to write… But it was good. We just walked around a bit, and had some hot chocolate, and looked at some market stalls, then went for a drink, and he bought me dinner and walked me home… Still no kiss, but surely it’ll come.

We might meet up on New Year’s Eve. What a way to start 2019 that would be.

We’re meeting this afternoon just for a walk and a chat. I wish I had a pair of sexy boots now as it’s very much the right weather for it: bitingly cold but incredibly dry. I’d love to have a big Russian fur coat and nothing underneath, but it’s a bit late to get one of those so it’ll have to be ankle boots, long socks, skirt and blouse. And probably sweater too. I will not be looking my sexiest, I have to say.

I’ll write more later.

I had one hell of a dream of being at Kieran’s house (and I don’t even know where he lives) and I said I was his present and he had to unwrap me. But it was a bit weird that Ha and Lily were there too, and as he peeled my knickers down I almost came in my sleep. Then I woke up and finished the job.