I had my first dance practise this evening, at home, fully clothed and with the curtains closed. I realised that although I thought I knew the routine really well from watching the video I only had the very beginning before I didn’t know which limb went where. And the timing was well off!

I had to keep restarting the video, learning a little bit more, and then starting again. It’s really repetitive and it’s going to be harder work than I thought.

Nothing much to report today except a busy day at work and a tough evening at Pilates! And I’m still going to see what I can get out of Mel before I post those pictures. Maybe I’m even getting used to feeling horny half the time and not being able to do anything about it.

It’s so murky and rainy outside, but strangely warm and I haven’t even had to wear tights at work, which has meant no underwear at least. It’s almost like spring is on the way, although I know it’s just the weather trying to fool us and it’ll turn cold at some point. But it doesn’t feel like we’ve really had winter.

I ended up watching the dance routine video when I got home again. Got to get it into my head and start practising, no matter how silly I’ll feel.

Ha told me she’d been invited to the dinner at Sarah’s on the 22^nd! I guess more moral support would be good, but on the other hand I was kind of hoping that it would look as much like a date setup as possible with just the four of us.

And then this evening I went to Mel’s again. For a change she didn’t even make me wait naked in the hallway, and I don’t know what that means. She asked me how rehearsal for my performance was going and I had to tell her that I hadn’t started but I had bought everything. She wasn’t impressed as she said six or seven weeks was not a lot of time to rehearse and perfect it, because the last thing anyone wanted to see was a bad striptease!

But five minutes later I was tied at the ankles, knees, wrists and elbows at my sides and trying to update her accounts! It’s just an impossible way to work, but it gets me so horny it’s unbelievable. I don’t know if I’m more or less productive really, because I’m full of energy.

There was a bit of a backlog, though, because of the tax return taking up so much time the past few times, and right at the end Mel produced a big pile of receipts that she’d found! So I’ll have to go through those in two weeks.

And the bad news was Mel reminded me that I had photos to upload to that website still, and that if wanted my abstinence to end then that would be the only way. She said if I uploaded them she wouldn’t impose abstinence on me for another month. It almost feels like I’ve won a bit more by holding out, so I’ll see if I can last longer and get some more concessions!

I spent this morning doing some of the things I’d told Mel I’d do in the last session, like trying to write down what I spent my time doing, and some life goals. I realise there’s a lot to do and if I want to get into a different branch of accounting I need to really get going. So I’m reading some of the books I bought ages ago, and have ordered some more. It feels completely nerdy to be reading about work on a Sunday but I kind of got into it.